On his last journey

Today we sent wai gong on his last journey. It has to be the most elaborate funeral I have ever witnessed. Hundreds of ppl walked him along Jalan Kayu and Yio Chu Kang Road for i guess 2km. It was a gd weather and we hogged much of the traffic along the way.

It was again one of the most difficult moments to handle at the crematorium. As expected, everybody broke down, I could do nothing but watch the coffin being pushed by the machines into the burning chamber (if this is correct term to use) and let out all my grieve and sadness for this magnificent man.

I have come across a few new faces through this 7 days of wake. Many of them supposingly my cousins but I have to admit this could be the first and last time I might be meeting them. For the regular close cousins, this event has somehow brought us closer. Going an unfortunate event together does bond ppl together sometimes. After the passing of wai gong, I hope the family will still make more opportunities to meet up and gather to update each other on the happenings.

外公， 慢走。。。

Wai gong has left

According to mum, wai gong has left peacefully on the morning of 2 Oct. I really hope it was a relieve for wai gong becoz he had gone thru a lot of pain in the last weeks.

I felt it is a small regret that he couldnt attend the big day of his 3 grandchildren coming December. But seeing him go thru all those pain, I dare not think too much.

Dun throw that away..

In your closet or drawer, is there a thing that is no longer functioning or useful?

Why didnt you throw that away during the last spring cleaning?

Does it remind you of something or someone so you can't bear to throw it?

Or is it simply, you have built a bond wif it? Though you didnt take it out and admire it everyday..

We do have such things I believe. There is just somethings you wun throw, though useless, dusty, taking up spaces.. 

Follow your heart, dun feel like throwing, then dun throw, why let others affect your decision and scare them laughing at you? Well, let them be.. dun care.. just do it!!!

Saddening

Mum asked for my dear's chinese and english full name, i asked her why. She just said quietly, "We think ..."

Things never go the way you want it. People come and people go.. but what can we do.

Mum seems to be taking it calmly, so what should I say.. I just wan to make a trip there and hope things arent as bad..

Living for yourself

Are you living for yourself or living for others?

Do you want to live for yourself or live for other?

Seriously I dunno the answer..